October By: Lauren Jernberg
Part 1
If October is
like the pain
Of a family
losing
A loved one.
Crying, grieving,
Wishing for
more time.
Sitting in
an empty room full of
People with
nothing to say.
Then May is
like a new life
Entering the
world. You hold
Them tight and
never let
Them go. For
they will be gone too soon.
Earlier today
I was driving down
The road. A
biker ahead disappears
Around the
corner. I go on hoping
On one is on
the other side. I turn
The corner. My
life flashes. Me
Playing games
with siblings as kids.
Learning to
ride my first bike
And getting
scratched along the way.
Graduation from
high school, my
First year
in college, then I realize
Everything was
fine.
And this too
The cross
bold in the sun
I am back in
church as a kid.
Coloring but
listening as well.
The pastor
talks about Jesus and
How he saved
us. I look up
To the cross
in the back,
Sun shining
on it making it
Glow. A halo
of light sits atop of it.
I am amazed
and stop in mid coloring
To listen. Not
knowing what to hear
I wait. The things
you hear in church.
Once in a
dream we went to the beach.
It was nice
and sunny out.
My friends
took me diving
Even though
we didn’t know how.
We saw
wonderful things as we dove.
I knew we
were not in Oregon anymore.
But we run
out of air.
Gasping for
a breath we watch
The bubbles fade
away.
Part 2
I never
thought life would be
Like this. Free
from the problems
Of reality.
We dance. I love to dance
With my two
left feet but
He doesn’t
seem to mind.
We spin
round and round on
The dance
floor happy to be together.
I never
thought I could be this happy.
He completes
my life.
Together
forever till death do us part.
Believe me,
what happened next
Was not what
you would expect.
We went our
ways for he
Had to
leave. My life
Was afraid
of what would be.
The worst
thing you ever said
To me was,
you are a great friend.
A friend? Just
a friend was what
I was and it
felt like a lie to me.
These days I
feel like falling.
A never
ending fall wondering
Where it
will take me.
Letting myself
go.
Falling into
emotions that are
Over running
my life. Waiting
For someone
to catch me.
Once in October
I met a guy.
He swept me
Off my feet
but it all was a lie.
I fell so
hard that I couldn’t go back
He left me
there with a picture.
Told me he
would be back.
Where is he
now?
But it is
not October anymore
It is May. Wishing
for time I don’t
Have. It was
gone too soon.
Everything
flashes before me
Then disappears
just as fast.
The bold sun
falls on him.
He glows
with a smile.
He is home
from the war.
I fall into
him and he catches me.
This is what
I have been waiting for.
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