October and May by Kody Cayson

Part I

If October is like an orange tinted day,

A day full of colors with the trees performing

Their last show, grand finale, before their long break,

Than May is like a blue tinted day,

A day full of colors with the trees performing

Their opening act, anxious from the long break.

Earlier today I was busy thinking.

Thinking much of the future, with a dash of the past.

Tired from so many full days

Served with so many half nights sleep.

I longed to get away, ride around the bend,

Run away. I looked forward to this bike,

This road, this high from this drug.

Earlier today I wanted to be alone.

“And this too ends… maybe.

To the questions left unanswered”,

They toast in the bar.

The rowdy fun has long since past,

The blue-collar workers turn to white-collar scholars

Talking about things too heavy to bare sober.

From talks of old flames leaving a more bitter taste then the gin

To what happens next with a tinge of fear.

Once in a dream I was strong.

I turned to my fears, faced them head on.

Strange feeling to have, believing its real.

If I could do it then, I can again I feel.

Part II

I never thought life could be just a dance for two.

Adjusting steps to a changing beat,

Finding that person that matches your step.

Cliché I know, but to be the one

Watching the dance, without the partner,

Is never something I thought life could be.

Sitting on the side with shoes unworn,

Seeing those around you stumble together

Thinking I could do better, but too scared to try.

Songs end to quick for partners to click.

The next song plays while I still sit.

Believe me, what happened next I didn’t want.

How do I say no? I’ve never before.

If I could take it back I would,

I feel strange and wrong.

Tried it some more, same feeling again.

It is a sin, at least I’ve heard.

Arms call out, I turned away, so eyes don’t meet,

Fake being asleep.

The worst thing you ever said to me wasn’t that bad.

People hear it all the time, half of the two are sad.

I’ve said worst to you, I’m sorry for that,

What you said to me was the reaction to that.

These days’ things are fast.

Too fast to hold onto, too fast to grab.

Can’t breathe forever, can’t stay in a day.

I don’t want to leave, they wont let me stay.

College almost over and career ahead.

Its all so bright, maybe that’s why I can’t see it yet.

Listen I am thankful for you both.

Two people care no matter what,

My parents, are there with me always,

I envy the way they adjust their step to the changing beat.

Two people that have the dance figured out.

Thankful you can show me what everything should be like,

If I could be them both I would, strong and caring,

Smart and funny, friendly and loyal.

The blueprints for the perfect person.

Once in October I was nervous and excited.

It was almost four years ago, so much has changed.

My closet drenched with orange and black.

A faint idea of what I wanted, so much time to figure it out.

The next four years I’ll remember for life,

Old friends lost and new gained.

Everything wasn’t quite to plan, but it worked out great.

Made me who I am.