When I Am Asked by Nicholas Ingalls
When I am asked how I began writing
Poems, I say I don’t actually know.
As a kid, perhaps, writing three line
Haikus for my mom on mother’s day, or
In school because we are told to write
And spit creativity from our pens.
The mind of a child, so much better
Than that of an adult. Still capable
Of thinking in new ways, imaginative
Ways of a child, not yet tampered with
By the standards of one right answer
Questions that the public school system thrives
On and always has. A system that stamps
Out all creativity, all new ways
Of thinking, and imagination.
Though, what I may truly say when asked how
I began writing poetry, is that
I had to begin for a class. Creative
Writing in high school. I forced myself to
Take something I thought I wouldn’t be good
At. To switch things up for a change, do
Something erratic and unlike my usual
Predictable, boring self that everyone
Knew me to be. I would write about trees
At night, the shear darkness that was lit up
By the ethereal blanket of white
Stars spackled through the night sky like spray on
Wall texture paint, the kind that comes out of
An aerosol can. Or, perhaps when asked
I’d say that I had always written poetry.
When I Am Asked
When I am asked
how I began writing
poems,
I talk about the indifference
of nature.
It was soon after my mother
died,
a brilliant June day,
everything
blooming.
I sat on a gray stone
bench
in a lovingly planted
garden,
but the day lilies were as
deaf
as the ears of drunken
sleepers
and the roses curved
inward.
Nothing was black or
broken
and not a leaf fell
and the sun blared endless
commercials
for summer
holidays.
I sat on a gray stone
bench
ringed with the ingenue
faces
of pink and white
impatiens
and placed my grief
in the mouth of
language,
the only thing that would
grieve with me.
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