Remembering
I wish I could rip out
I wish I could rip out
the parts of my
brain that remember you.
It does me no
favors to see your face
Recalling how
you tore apart our lives.
How could you be
so sick and damned selfish
made uto leave our home and fall apart
made uto leave our home and fall apart
my
brother grew up not knowing
the affection
and strength he yearned for.
He turned to
anger.
I watched
my mother cry for days,
I thought it was
all my disgusting fault,
I was ten years
old, you son of a bitch.
I had to grow up
with people asking,
prying at my closed heart,
prying at my closed heart,
Where is your
dad?
Don’t you ever miss him?
Don’t you ever miss him?
I say no, I don’t
have a dad.
They look at me like I’m the one in the
They look at me like I’m the one in the
wrong,
but no, that’s you, and when they hear truth
but no, that’s you, and when they hear truth
Some abandon me
and see me like dirt
Their Mother forgot
to wipe off their shoes,
They scrub me
off, I fade away.
Why am I the one
who’s a mistake.
No, I am the one
who had the childhood,
filled with
counselors, doctors, and police
calling you into
the office from class,
who didn’t
know how to answer their prodding,
just wanted
to vanish on the spot,
But they called mom while she was retching,
And all she
comes back to is sobbing.
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